As it once started in the destined month at the destined time, He was made to witness the most intriguing conversation between 2 personalities confronted for his benefit. They both were driven by same content of experiences and as the thoughts multiplies , each tend to explore diversified things, n ImPlications of this discussion were manifold.
P1: ever since I was born , I always have received what i desired for. Quite recently it started with a notion of being not achieving what I always wanted to achieve.
P2 : Good to know that you have started analysing things. Great things can happen only when you start analysing yourself.
P1: But my analysis stand no where. I just everyday stay with a curiosity of reaching my desires, trigger other emotions in conjunction, scream aloud and what not! my life is messed up( staring at the distant horizon ) , there’s nothing one can see more worse than this.
P2: I believe worst is always yet to come ( confident in his thoughts )
P1: what do you actually mean ? This life has always brought me sadness , taken away my peace , happiness and has given me enough worsts to remember. I am destined to be sad , lamenting over the things that happened in my life.
P2: you are destined to discover yourself. ! Do not lament for a longer period. Learn from It. Happiness and sadness are just created by you , a mere thought in your mind which can actually be modified when needed.
P1: you have gone nuts , ain’t you. I need happiness n that’s what makes me happy. I believe sole purpose of life is to be happy. I cry when it makes me cry. Do not try to impose your thoughts on me. Source of Happiness cannot be modified.
P2: you are right except for the fact that definition you are giving for happiness is incorrect
P1: what makes you say it as incorrect ?
P2: good question. But i prefer not to say now. Tell me something. what makes you happy ?
P1: the smile on my face.
P2: And who decides the smile ?
P1 : the actions around me.
P2 : so what actions make you smile
P1 : (after a long pause) the reactions of other ppl, When they act according to my needs.
P2: do you mean when your expectations are met ?
P1: of course yes.
P2: why don’t you think of staying away from expectations ?
P1: because i alone know the ecstasy associated with expectations and sadly you do not.
P2: I believe ecstasy is when you suppress expectations.
P1: again I am forced to say you have gone nuts. The part of mine I carried till date , my identity , my love can never be separated from me nor can I try to suppress it.
P2: happiness is all what you think. It’s your interpretations. If you are wise , you can find happiness in everything if it does good or bad because , good or bad is again relative. To quote with an example, a beggar was given the food every night by a family and on the 11th day , they did not. Angry beggar cursed them for not giving and kept on lamenting over the same till dawn. Had it been ME inside the beggar , I would have happily left the place thinking they have already served me enough in this egoistic world. So I can sleep wit peace the same day. At the end of the day , both did not have food but I was happy and the poor beggar was not. Everything boils down to your interpretations.
P1: Doesn’t make any sense. How is it even possible to stay happy when you are devoid of food and people who assure you of food , cheat you at the end ?
P2 : assure is what u think, just to meet your desire to feel pity on yourself. I will certainly be sad at not having food but I promise , I certainly do not , at people who did not serve me.
P1: cursing makes me feel better. Try it once and I reckon you get used to it because its happiness.
P2: ( laughing at him ) when your expectations are not met, you tend to trigger your emotions such as anger and to satisfy it, you tend to curse , which doesn’t change anything that happened. An utter waste of energy. This is your definition of happiness, or rather a short lived happiness.
P1: Look. I have lived this way and I am going to live the same. You do not know how much sadness this eyes has seen. How much revenge I am left with to satisfy my soul. I can’t pretend to be happy when I know I am deeply sad. I do not live in dreams like you. I bloody live in reality.
P2: pity me. ! wish I had seen it. Because that gives me enough strength and knowledge to live this life the best.
P1: ( thoughtful ..could not stand what he said ) i live my life the best in my own ways.
P2: A while ago you said your life is messed up. I neither said it nor will I say.
P1: thoughtful again ….
P1 and p2 are not mere personalities rather they represent ego and pure ego. Destiny lets you know both of them , at one point of time but to choose one, decision is always yours !
How I wish I get rid of I ! 
I got to understand what you elaborated in the topic but still last line you described about the personalities in the form of ego, so
What’s the difference between ego and pure ego?
cause I believe ego is EGO, its the way we use EGO as a tool to analyze about life or anyone’s behaviour!
Isn’t it?
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Thanks for sharing your opinion Gauree.
From my perspective, something that drives you to do bad, is ego and something that drives you do good is pure ego and again good or bad is relative.. for an instance, if you are in some problem and went on worrying about it for a long time… This is due to your ego, which cannot accept the change.. But after some time, you tend to worry less and come out of it..This I say as pure ego. Because of ego (pure ego) you tend to come out of problem because you could not tolerate anymore looking at what you your life has become..! Hope I made it clear
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No. I am still not convinced that why here u r using ego and pure ego..!I understand good and bad are relative but I would say ego is just not bad or good or pure. We can expand it or make it transparent or compress it when we have control over it. As ego exists when other people are around us, there is not any ego when we are alone or with a innocent kid, So when you are using first person i.e. P1 is a form of Ego, he is not, its just selfishness in him made think that way. I believe ego should be there in us but in our pocket, either in transparent form like when we be (innocent) with the kids or in expanded form like we belong to everyone and everything in this world as one belongs to everyone!! This was about the ego. I would say as Ego is only Ego not good or bad!
And I liked the complete article you wrote to convince to choose correct path in our life in the simple way! Cheerz!!
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Perhaps your ego is stopping you from accepting ego in 2 forms…
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Pleasantly quoted. You are correct!!! People are brimming with their ego. (May I venture it as negativity in simple words?). Everything has positive and negative aspect. To make the elegant right decision, again it is a vast topic.
You find very less people to foster this. I would like to read the next article on – how I wish my pure ego, when my destiny letting me know both of them 🙂
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thank you.. ‘n you wil read it soon ma’am
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Aptly said!!! Ego and Pure Ego are separated by a fine line actually and yet, the two are miles apart. I also feel, all the negativity, frustration in one’s mind need not be ego always, it may be the weakness of the person, his inability come out of all the things dragging him down and break free.
But once this bond is broken, he would never be bound again 🙂
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interesting.. and Aptly said. Thanks vidya ..
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